Dear Ileana, "From the very first time I blessed my eyes on you, girl, my heart said follow through."  Those are the opening lines, if you don't recognize them, from a Bob Marley song.  Since meeting you, every time I hear them, I think of you, because they describe so perfectly my experience with you.  I've never had that experience, or felt that way about any other woman, ever.  So I know that that moment is very rare.  And I really don't know, of course, or believe that that will ever happen to me before I die.  I've always said that the connection we have is very special.  And no matter what kinds of mistakes we've both made over the course of the relationship, in spite of any and all regrets, nothing can ever take away from the beauty and rarity of those feelings, and intuitions, when we first met.  That's why it's so frustrating now to be apart from you, with the thought and possibility, that we didn't make it work, even though we have something so rare and special.  But when my faith is clear and strong, I know that if I truly love you and if you truly love me, then someday we will be together again.  The rarity and specialness of our connection is something that, with time apart, will hopefully shine through and become more apparent over time.  I have no idea what you're feeling today or what you'll be feeling tomorrow, but I can only hope that you recognize our very special attraction, and if it is Gods's will, we'll be together again when the time is right for both of us.  I know there are a lot of negative feelings right now and recently: resentment, guilt, regret; but love will always outlast those bad feelings.  Its happened for many others, so I know it can happen with us.  I'm trying to be patient, which is something that I'm not always good at, but maybe for me, that's part of why this is our reality.  I'm willing to face any challenges, with the faith that they're opportunity for growth, and eventual happiness, hopefully with you.  Love,