Go big or go home!

"There is no passion to be found playing small -- in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." -- Nelson Mandela

My friend R. Lowe posted this on facebook just a couple hours ago.  It really struck home.  I know I'm probably sounding like a broken record these days, since I've mostly been writing about how unfulfilled I feel at work, but it's what's most on my mind.  Which should say a lot, since I'm expecting the arrival of my first-born any day now!  For my daughter's sake, for my wife's sake, and for my own sake, I deserve at least the opportunity to go big.  Go big or go home!  I feel small and underutilized at work.  I feel ignored.  I write emails and there's often no response or affirmation of any kind.  I post articles on facebook on topics that my work colleagues should likely agree with, but no one comments or clicks "like."  It's ridiculous.  I'm like Ralph Ellison's Invisible Man.  When I'm at the office, especially when it comes to meetings, I feel small, I feel turned inward, I feel hunched, I feel downward.  On the contrary, at times when I'm at Court or at other times when I'm one-on-one with a client or law student or other times on the weekends among friends or other people, I feel full, like my wings are stretched, I feel level, I feel calmer and more confident, more comfortable in my own space/area.