Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Yet another unit meeting

Sue, the supervising attorney of the unit, was in such a sour mood today.  Her tone of voice at the hour-long unit meeting was atrocious.  It was so derogatory and impatient that even Emilia told Sue directly, something to the effect of, "I also have very little patience today, so don't keep talking to me like that."  Later in the meeting, I spoke up about a case and offered my analysis, ending by saying "even if my opinion means zero."

Note to self: remember this day later -- if and when I question the decisions that I make in the next steps of my professional career -- remember this day.  I deserve better than to work for a supervisor who is *not* a true leader.  I deserve better than to be confronted with negativity on a regular basis.  I deserve better than to work for a supervisor who is adored by her supervisees, when the example that she sets is so negative.  I deserve better than to work for someone so immature.

It's just so ridiculous.  By at least halfway through the meeting, I had a smile on my face.  I stand by what I've said before: I've lost nearly all respect for my supervisor.  As I told her directly, while sitting in her office, once the trust in a relationship is gone, it is nearly impossible, if not completely so, to rebuild.  Sue destroyed her relationship with Stephanie G. by talking shit about her behind her back for so long, then accidentally leaving a voicemail on Stephanie's phone on which Sue stated her real feelings.  How can you trust someone like that?  How can management keep someone like that in a supervisor position?  How can I continue to work for someone like that?  I can't answer the first two questions, but God willing, I'll have an answer to the third.

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